feelings from the past

I cannot tell you. You wouldn’t understand. Maybe if you try…but I know you won’t. I want to trust you, I really do. I know everybody will just laugh at me. Judge me. I may have issues. Actually, I do have them. Everybody does. But I don’t judge them. Sometimes I do - guilty as charged! However, I try to comprehend them, to face and to accept the truth. I really want to tell you this. I need a friend that I can trust and that I can share my problems and thoughts. I know you are not going to read this, but here’s (a little piece of) the truth: I fell in love with someone who doesn’t really exist…Crazy shit, isn’t it?